Saturday, December 12, 2009
HAPPY 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR LAOPO BIBI! i.e 183 days! xD.
these 6 months have been such a wonderful experience for my life. dear i just wanna say how much of a blessing you are to me, and that i've never ever regretted making my choice of being with you for the past 6 months.
i love you for who you are, not what you are. so it doesn't really matter what you will be,or who you will be,it's what that make you out to be from the inside,which is who i wanna be with for the rest of my life.
thank you dear for showering me with your love, and with the many many events that has happened, i'm more and more certain i'm gonna have you as a wife. sweetheart, i want you to know,my love for you goes beyond anything.
i love you,
1314 3344. muacks.
<3 you my beloved bibi. (:
12:31 AM;
Thursday, November 12, 2009
HAPPY 5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING LAOPO! ^^.
it's been such a journey that i'll never forget, and it's a journey that i'll continue to walk in. dear i just wanna say i love you, and i know that there are many things that has happened. many ups and downs, but we are still strong ^^.
xie xie ni de ai, xie xie ni gei wo de xin fu.
laopo wo xiang dui ni shuo wo hao ai ni.
ai ni yi shen yi shi.
(:
ni de laogong,fabby xD.
4:13 AM;
Thursday, October 15, 2009
hi all, just wanted to type out the various little things that has happened in my life.
life has brought a greater meaning whenever i've learnt something new, or i've been able to realize something of a deeper understanding and reason. life's responsibilities has given me a much better view on what i am to expect in the future when it is to come. my thinking of a slacker has since switched to even working hard on the last semester of my studying days that are left. i bought my books, took a hard look at it and said," i'm not going to fail all these, but i'm going to nail it really hard". i told myself this, that i had to be the best the i could be, in order for a prospective and bright future in whatever position i would hold in the future.
though army is coming soon, and the many things that is coming my way, i will face it with boldness. to be very truthful, i'm afraid. afraid of something that isn't present at all.it is my shortcoming of not being able to conquer my fears at one go,but i'm working on it.to be the strong man the people around me needs, to be the one who'd provide for the people i love,to be the pillar of the many ones around of me.
to even the one i love,many many things and many events has happened,both you and i know about this, and we know how both of us feels about each other.getting together wasn't a easy task at all, and although there were many differences, many many little arguements, but they cannot overtake something called love. the love that you've shown me is far more greater than anyone has ever touched me so greatly and deeply. the little things you do, the little things you say, even words of advice are so precious that it just places itself in place in my life. i know i have my shortcomings in life, and i know i have many many areas that i have to improve on that would really affect the things i would do in the future. no compromises and no saying that,"when it comes, then i'll decide" kind of attitude. i've seen how my friends have done that, and i told myself that i can't be like them, taking life so easily like everyday's just partying for them. i for one tend to think a lot too,and i will think of the various little things.i believe of the many little things that have happened in the past,and it all has happened now.i believe with all my heart, that i have found the one person that i'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with. i've found you, and to me, you're just wonderful no matter what you do, what you say, or how you are. i love you just the way you are. even your shortcomings, your virtues, all i love. simple as that. tell me one thing that has blessed me really a lot, that is you baby.
telling you my past experiences, that i was hurt in relationships before, given the fact that i was cheated on, not once, but twice. i felt so sad and didn't have faith in relationships that would last me a lifetime anymore. it all just felt like everything's just a facade.but when i met you, i was in a slumber initially, and i was hankering over something that has no results.i was blinded at first, and i didn't see the greater picture in stall for me. but as i got to know you bi, as i got to be with you, bits and pieces of the little things that i have been hoping for, has all been piecing themselves up together and without realization,the picture is almost complete.my faith in relationships has been so low before i met you,it has never been in a sense whereby i'm very confident of myself, and that i can do something right or maybe do something sweet for the someone i love deeply.it took me time to adjust to not having a relationship for years, and i have got to really really see what it is all about which is really really different from what i've experienced in the past. one thing in my life's that for sure i won't change is that,when i give myself to someone, i will neither look to the left, right, nor the back. i would just look forward, and i would just give my whole lot to the person. thats me, and that my principle and stand in relationships.i know how it's like to be cheated on, and i know how it feels like to be hurt, so i've told myself, i will not bring this suffering and hurt unto the one i love, because i am a man of honor and a guy that would not compromise on this fact.
the many promises i have made, the many many things that i've done, all i mean it, and i want to say to you dear is that, i will never leave you, because i know you are someone, who has a great meaning in my life, and that all of the things in the past, just sums up to what is happening now. bibi i wanna say that i love you, and nothing makes me glad, but just loving you.i promised i'll takecare of you, and i'll bring you happiness, i will do it because i mean it with all my heart. although now i can't support you just as yet, and i am saving up, i will still make it a point to provide for you even in the slightest of things, so darling, i want you to hold me to these words i've said, and lock them in your heart, because laogong means what he says, and there's no qualms about all of these.
i love you, and i know the days ahead are challenging but growing in maturity and growing more bonded in love.
ai ni yi shen yi shi.
loves you laopo,
fabby laogong. (:
8:21 AM;
Monday, October 12, 2009
HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNI WITH DEAR (: muacks you loads ^^
just wanna say how blessed i am, with you around in my life, and nothing i can ask for more, but you and your love for me.
nothing has ever made me happy,but your tender loving care. i'm sorry for the many hurts, and i promise i will bring you more than happiness can ever contain.
i'm holding you in my arms, loves dear :D
1314, 3344.
12:00 AM;
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
hi all people. i know i hadn't been blogging real often so here goes.
today i'll be talking about myself. how i've thought about the things of life and the one i'm currently living in right now.
lets talk about how i've been living a life, which was in a very kind of attitude towards the daily slacking of just gaming and slacking in my room.
i was a person, who'd didn't think of what i wanted to be of, what i wanted to do in life. i just took life's purpose as the day goes by, taking each day at a step, and just looking aimlessly at what life has in store for me for that day only. which means that what the day produces, will be what it is for the rest of the day itself. there and that simple. sounds pretty normal you might say right? but after the turnover of events that happened, the many things that made me realise that the people, the things, my surroundings, i've not come in touch with. i've not interacted with the people nor the things around me. all i did was stare at my laptop everyday without fail for maybe, 24 hours straight? that isn't good at all givne the resposibilities i'm having right now, and the many many things that'll affect me in time to come.
so lets talk about what i reflected on the past 1 - 2 day. i actually was in a situation,whereby i lost my senses and i just acted on impulse and went to do something which i wasn't supposed to do. but doing that, i'm not only hurting my principles, but also the one who loves me dearly, and the one who is going to walk me down life's journey. she was upset, no doubt, and i knew after i had done wrong. i told myself this 2 days, that if i'm going to put this into practice right now and not stop, she would suffer in the future, and my family in turn would suffer. i told myself that i can't afford to act on impulse. things and situations happens, and i do nothing but run away from it? NO! that's not the way. i told myself, i am not going to be like that anymore,and i'm going to instill values of truth, values that would make me be a whole and newer person in identity.i told myself that i must not lie. as i know a lie would cut someone so hurtfully, and so deeply. how such a small lie, can lead to something so big and impacting.i told myself i needed to grow up, i needed to be the support for the people around me, the people i love. i can't just waste my life on computer games and live in a virtual world. i needed to set my priorities right this time. no more compromises, no more holding back on my values. saying it is one thing, but doing it is another. so i'm telling myself right now that, i'm not going to just say it, because i know that i've been always saying stuff, and i've not been acting it out, and i'm going to do things in a right manner this time, with the new values i have for life. it's not just the motivation for today, it won't die at the point when i sleep and forget all about it, i will root this deeply and that it will not leave me for as long as i shall live.
i've taken steps like starting to exercise this evening. went to the track, ran a few rounds and found out that, there's so many things that i really need to learn, so many things that i've been shut out of. now i feel upbeat and refreshed after the run. i feel good and i know this will make me a better person in terms of mentally and physically. i told myself that, with a weak body, how am i to give her support? how am i to takecare of her when i myself, am unable to takecare of my own body? turths like this really dawn on me, and it really strucked me hard. i told myself that i'm not going to be lazy anymore, no more and never in my life. even if it means having to give up my enjoyment time and sacrifice it for the sake of my loved ones, i will. i will go all out, even if "hardwork" is going to take it's toll on me,i will grit my teeth and go through it because i'm going to be the man for you baby, the man that you can lean on in times of need. the man that you can hold on when you're sad, when you're not feeling well, whenever you're in distress. i WILL and i say it again, i WILL be your support and i will provide you with all that i have.i know i've let you down and disappointed you many many times because of my immaturity in certain aspects of my life,i apologise to you sweetheart. but baby, i want to thank you also, for teaching me good values.values that i see and that'll make me a better person in the future when we have our own family. you are entrusted to me, and i will make sure that i take good care of you. no matter what will happen, no matter what will come our way, i'll hold your hand tightly through this ordeal of life, and we'll walk with hands held tight, till we see the end of the road, which greets us with a bleaming rainbow. (:
laopo i just want to say that i love you. never once had i been so changed and impacted by someone. you are truely, the one i'm looking for. people may say anything, people may try to do anything, but i know, and i have faith, that we will fanthom all storms, and we will overcome all obstacles in our lives.i am planning for our future, and this is what i will say to you,"I'M WORKING HARD NOW,AND I MEAN IT FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART." darling, i am going to be honest in whatever i do, in whatever i say too. no matter what wrongs there may be, no matter what life hits us with, i will be honest with you and i will never lie to you ever again.
i've started planning the every single thing i wanna do, and its taking effect already. i'm happy with this arrangement, and i know i will be a better person. thanks dearie, and thank you god, for sending someone so beauty and sweet. someone so understanding and matured. someone so kind and demure. thank you lord. it's my blessing in life. thank you also for always being here, for always helping us out in many ways. thank you.
P.S, i love you honey. (:
wo men yi qi jia you hao ma? ai ni yi shen yi shi.
9:40 PM;
Saturday, September 12, 2009
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HAPPY 3RD MONTH TO BIBI AND ME ^^!!~~
darling, i just want to say, how hard it is for us to have gone through many, many seasons of these 3 months. it wasn't easy, but i knew we both grew stronger together.
many many areas of characteristics we began to find out about each other during the walk. many many attributes about each other we came to know about. bi. i just want to say a big thank you. a thank you for making me wake up. wake up from my every slumber. its like, everytime i make a blooper, you have your way of making me realise the mistakes that i make, and how it'll in turn affect me in the future. thanks bibi.
wo zui da de huan le, shi ni jing ru wo de ren shen, zao cheng le hen da de gai bian,na gai bian shi ni chen wei le wo de shen ming ai ren (:
sorry for being so blur and being so lor sor at times ><.
i know sometimes your ears pain, i'll try to cut down on those ><. pardon me ya? xD
and bibi, ni dui wo de zhong yao, she mo dou bu neng qu dai de. ni de ai, shi wo zui da de li wu. ai ni yi shen yi shi, shen shen shi shi. muacks. ^^.
lets hold tight,and walk through this journey of life together ya? (:
with loads of love,
your laogong. ^^
10:42 PM;
Thursday, August 27, 2009
hadn't been blogging for quite some time yea? just dawned upon me that i needed to do it. (:
oh wells, life's the normal routine of going to school and back home day in and day out. but what's most interesting about this routine, that it doesn't seem like a routine. it's more of, something in which i've been accustomed to in my current status of life.
my course has really dawned upon me that i didn't choose the wrong course after all. it teaches me to finance myself in the future and it teaches me to be able to look beyond whats right in front of you.
had my first IAC CA1 retest last week, and teacher called me to say that i passed it ^^ yea! it's great to study the basics once again, and since i'm in the advanced stage, i should master the basics well first.
anws, about my personal life.
things have been going real smoothly for the both of us. yes, hectic schedules and piling up of work seems too much to handle, but it's the encouragement that brings and pushes to a long way ahead :D.
xie xie ni de zhi chi. mei you ni, shi bu xing de.
i feel blessed. really really blessd. and if you've asked me if i ever regretted getting into this, answer is NO. thank god for placing you in my life. i thank him for placing someone to scold me at times when i'm naughty. sometimes when i'm not doing things in the right manner.
thank you dear, for being so nice to me. i could never ask for more, when you've given me what is more than i could ask for.
just wanna say that, sometimes i repeat stuffs, yes lor soh i know, but these words are not casual,i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
just 3 words, it means everything to me ^^.
8:56 PM;